Fifty-three years ago, a ten- year-old simp walked straight into his father's bear trap...
... Nearing the 1964 Christmas break during my fifth grade,
thirteen inches of snow blanketed my street on a late Thursday evening. Losing
a school day to the elements was a beautiful thing.
Friday morning, my friends and I mushed over to Central Park
towing our sleds through the middle of the street. Milking the day to the last
of the light, we rode every hill until our feet froze. Back from the sleigh
ride, I plopped down outside my apartment on the hall stairs and began
undressing. Mom refused to let me inside the apartment. She, slush and dog poop
were mortal enemies. As I worked my top layer off, I heard my father's familiar
step coming up the stairs.
He mumbled to himself, "Damn, I forgot the suit."
Noticing me, his eye focused on my half untied snow boots. "Tommy here's
the ticket, hurry to the cleaners. I need that suit for the wedding."
“OOOOOOOOOOhhhhhh,” left my mouth as I rose slowly.
"Go!" Dad ordered.
I death marched down the stairs. Dad behind me, "FASTER
they're going to close in 5 minutes."
When I got there, Joe, the Spotless Cleaners manager was
turning off the lights. Smiling with an edge he opened the door.
"Come in
Tommy, be quick, I want to get out of here."
Deed done. I earned a slow walk home. A slow meandering trek
through every snow pile between the store and my building. Walking
deliberately, I was Hannibal's elephant moving over the Alps, going knee deep
with every step. I moved the suit to the
back of my pea coat, resting the hanger's hook on the back of my collar. This
left both hands free for better balance. My serpentine trip created swirling desire
paths over each snow pile.
Calculated attention paid to each hill stretched my normal
five-minute trip home to half an hour. With the satisfaction of a Sherpa's job
well done, I danced a jig and rang the bell in the vestibule harking my return
and an incredible urge to pee. Running
up the stairs, Dad greeted me at the door, "Where the hell were you?"
I said nothing, smirked and turned my back, offering Dad his
suit from its resting-place on the nape of my neck. I ran into the bathroom,
worked off my jeans, long johns, and two pairs of underwear just in time.
Stepping back into the kitchen, Dad met me face to
face at the bathroom door holding up the suit.
"Nice jacket. Where are my pants?"
"Huh", I mumbled.
"My pants, where are my pants?"
A clothes hanger never had as thorough an examination as the
one I put that hanger through. The pants were not on it, in it; on top it,
under it. There were no pants. The jacket, the jacket was good. Two sleeves,
pressed cleaned, all that. But the pants, the pants made no appearance despite
multiple prayers under my breath. I was the baffled volunteer from the audience
looking for the rabbit in the hat and finding it unbelievable it was gone.
Dad put his slacks on and said, "Lets' go."
Down to Hades we descended, third floor, second floor, first
floor, no pants. Hallway, no pants. Down the building's stoop, no pants.
Dad, "So which way did you walk exactly?"
This is where it got tricky. I set a new record for a
dramatic pause. My mouth agape, he asked again, "Exactly - where - did -
you - walk?
Words failed me. I didn't even try. I owned too many
fruitless experiences responding to similar requests from my father. Trying to
answer unanswerable questions to even begin thinking about opening my mouth.
Left with nothing to say I showed him my exact path. Every nuance. Every turn.
Every double step. At one point, I did the cha-cha one up, two back, one up. I
was possessed. I mirrored my entire walk never measuring how pissed off my path
of greatest resistance home was making him. When Dad and I had these special
moments an eerie stillness set in. No yelling, no accusations. Only the 'look'
with sharp orders.
"Stop."
"Go left."
"Here?"
"Are you sure you weren’t under any cars?"
Hill after hill we climbed towards the avenue, policing the
grounds. Despite the fact, Dad's pants were charcoal and the streets contained
nothing but white snow, he insisted we walk very slowly. You couldn’t miss
‘em. The cleaners were closed.
Walking back to our building, same story. Every hill walked
serpentine with the look and the short barked orders. After one last look under
the car directly in front of the house, we marched the stoop and began our ascent to Hades, second floor, third floor,
fourth floor, into the apartment. Passing through the door, Dad gave Mom the
look and then me one more look for good luck. He went directly over to his jacket on the
hanger with the plastic still on it. Dad held it up – then draped it over his
arm. Together they resembled Michelangelo's Pieta. I think he was saying
goodbye. It might have been my imagination, but I thought I saw him talk to the
jacket.
"We have closed many bars together, old friend."
Dad sighed, “I will miss the way the secretary at Pepsi looked at you, on me,
when we did our sales calls."
Dad said no more about the suit.
Two weeks later, I'm playing in front of my house and Dad
comes walking up the street. Getting closer, I see he has on a charcoal jacket. Oh God, I'm thinking, he bought the same suit again. Not
good.
"Hi Dad, is that the suit. It looks great. Did you buy
it again?"
"Nope, same suit." Dad said with a smile,
"Every suit comes with two pairs of pants."
